How long until the wedding?

It has been almost a year since I started this blog and life has sure gotten in the way. I have been engaged for a year and 3 months and it has flown by. The start of wedding plans officially is underway. I never realized how stressful these plans are. I have been going to my hair dresser for every homecoming, prom, coloring, and hair cut for 4 years. I made my appointments and got a call yesterday saying she wasn't able to do my wedding but someone else from the shop could.

If anyone knows me, my hair and makeup on those type of days is important. I almost flipped. It didn't help that she got married in December and she was saying, "Samantha it is just hair. In the big scheme of things its not that big of a deal." All I really wanted to say was B**** Please.

      Please don't tell me what will be important and what won't.
It's hard enough with having 4 out of 6 bridesmaids out of state and having a deadline on when they all had to buy them. (But being the lovely friends and family that I have, they all went and bought them!)
Even though I took the rest of the year off from school, there seems to never be enough time for all these plans. In between Work, Work, Work, having my car in the shop, and having to clean the house to show it, I have only an ounce of time to keep my sanity and get stuff done.

When I shut my eyes at night I can finally envision the doors opening and walking down the aisle. Whenever my mother talks about decorations, I keep telling her I need pictures. I can't imagine what it will look like because I don't care. Put some flowers here, Put some bows there. But I want that moment where I look up and see Dylan's eyes and nothing seems to matter. I get chills just thinking about that connection when we both know what is going on and the equation will equal marriage.

I talked to him about that moment in the car last night and he gave me the look I envisioned. He got teary eyed and said I can't wait. I am trying to stay grounded and not be what people call Bridezilla. I am very particular about some pieces of the wedding but in the end I know that he will be waiting and it was all worth the stress.

If only it would come sooner...

-Samantha

Mary Kay Anyone?

My new adventure is Mary Kay. I know that when I decided to start doing Mary Kay, it was going to be hard. I  knew that I would have to work at selling the product to people. One thing is for sure... People don't like being asked to buy products haha. My main decision is to make it so, I can buy products and use the money to buy items for my future house! I think that is very exciting. Even if I get 80$ a month, I can start to pay off Dylan and I's brand new cookware! That was the one thing that him and I decided to buy together. I absolutely love the cookware. I know that when Dylan and I start looking for different items for our house, we are going to have a blast. He is one of the most supportive people I have ever met. His main slogan is "Go Big, or Go Home". I know that with these decisions, he is definitely having as much fun as I am. I want this wedding to come now.. please? Decisions Decisions! I know that people are suppose to buy gifts for the wedding but what is appropriate pricing? I want to have good stuff and thats why dylan and I bought the cookware ourselves. Am I suppose to ask them for the best? I don't know! I need to read Wedding Planning for dummies! Maybe it will have wedding etiquette.

-Samantha

Why?

My question today is why?

I know that i haven't written a blog in a couple of weeks and I could answer my question. Why...
My computer was broken. The love of viruses...

Frustration is such a complex feeling. I think it is a mixture of disappointment and anger all in one. That is what I am feeling at the moment. Frustrated... I kinda just want to take a walk in the rain outside because maybe it will take this frustration away...

Today isn't about any wedding plans or what my graduation may come to. Today is talking about when people come in and out of your life. How many times have people come into my life and then left? Probably many! I am sure everyone that is reading this has plenty of stories to tell. Possibly best friends or life partners... Maybe even some pastors have come in and out of your life...

Why? (What exactly am I asking?)
Why do they leave?
Why do we get hurt?
Why do we expect those people to stay the rest of our lives?

Can we really meet every ones expectations?

I know that God has a path for everyone of us... Maybe they send us to California, Colorado, or maybe another part of Ohio but how do you get over something like that?


Proverbs 19:21
Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.


It is so true. I honestly don't know where I am getting at but I have had some frustrations that I needed to let out...


Plus (there are some times when... You might want them to leave ha. ha.) 
But honestly How does someone make the right decision? 


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-Samantha

Destination?

There is a new question in the air. Should we have a destination wedding? Dylan and I have been discussing this back and forth about what we really want. I feel like there are benefits to both of these types.

Benefits of Destination                       Benefits of Wedding Here 
-Cheaper                                                 -More people can come
-Smaller Wedding                                    -Can still be Beautiful
-Intimate                                                  -Intimate
-Beautiful Setting                                      -People wouldn't have to fly out or pay for a hotel room.
-Simple to Plan
-Vacation Spot
-Easy access to Cruise line

I called Dylan and asked him what he thought the benefits were for each and the benefits of a destination wedding outweigh the benefits of a wedding here. There are so many people I love and would love to come to a wedding but it may be easier to have a reception after the honeymoon.

I know that it would be hard to have people I love from the church family not be able to come... I am confused about what to do..

-Samantha

"I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you."
- Elizabeth Barrett Browning 

Do You Like Surprises?

Do you like surprises?

     Honestly thinking about it, I do not, I repeat, do not like surprises. The only surprise I really liked was when Dylan asked to marry me. Even then I kept asking him what he was up to. Surprises are something you cannot plan. If anyone took a second to get to know me, then they would instantly realize, I AM A PLANNER! I sometimes have to plan to be spontaneous! One thing that I love is that Dylan is not a planner. We kind of balance each other out.

    My dad texted me and asked me to do him a favor. I asked him what it was and he said I will tell you AFTER you say yes or no. (Soon I realized he was just messing with me!)

     Would you do someone a favor if you didn't know what it was? That rolls into the surprise category and I got it out of him. He asked me to pick up Sarah Kelly from the Airport! (She is singing a couple of songs at church this weekend!)

(oh and talking about Surprises, someone surprised us by stopping by just now. ha ha... SURPRISE!) 

     Do you like surprises? I realized that starting to plan this wedding a year and a couple months in advance, means that there will be no surprises. Right? I don't know if people understand why I want to start planning this wedding now. It could be just because I want to rush it, it could be because venues and photographers are already booking for 2012 or it could help with paying for it. The list could go on and on but why does it matter? Why should I have to justify my reasonings? 

     “Surprises are foolish things. The pleasure is not enhanced, and the inconvenience is often considerable.”

I don't like Surprises :] Do you?

Samantha

Where in the world!?!

Where in the world is Scott and Bonnie Sliver?

I repeat my parents are MIA! ha ha... 

If you read this mom or dad-

CALL ME!!!

      It's been one of those days. I have realized that if I don't pass a class, I don't graduate High School. What I think is interesting is, my graduation comes down to this one class. I have gotten A's and B's all my high school career and this is what happens. It comes down to this last class. I guess we will see what happens. Will I succeed?

What is success?

       I remember in middle school, we had to do this Parent-Teacher Conferences. I remember answering the question, What is success?  I have never changed my answer. Success isn't about money or being the president of a company, to me it is happiness. Yesterday when Dad came home and settled in to watch American Idol, I looked at him and said, "Dad, I am really disappointed with myself." He asked why and I said, "Because I had to dropped this one class. I have done so well and for me to have to get a tutor is not like me." I didn't want them to think that it was because I had too much on my plate, but it's not like that. It is so frustrating.

Is success these people on American Idol? 

(Can you believe that there are what like 3 girls that are 15 and have the voices of 25 year olds!?!)

“Striving for success without hard work is like trying to harvest where you haven't planted”

All I can say is doing PSEO as a Junior and then as a Senior is HARD WORK!

(Talk about Senioritis)

-Samantha 

What's love?

What is love? Is love an emotion or an action? Once I became engaged, I have started to learn what Love really is. I haven't actually grasped the whole concept and I possibly never will but one thing is for sure, Love is complex. 

Welcome to my blog! 

I figured I would start this blog just in case anyone is already getting annoyed with what I have to say. How can I help the excitement though? Even in the 4 months I have been engaged, Dylan and I have already realized that planning this wedding will be one of the longest experiences of our life. (I know maybe a little dramatic) BUT honestly, everyone has their opinions and I can't listen to all of them... Dylan and I are young. I will be 19 when the wedding arrives but this is our life... our marriage... Can you tell I already want a destination wedding!?! Can anyone tell me whether it is cheaper or not! Just kidding but honestly, I am learning that I was suppose to have a vision for my wedding and what types of table decorations, flowers, colors, and venue... My vision was simple. Get engaged, have it in a church with people I love all around, and go on the honeymoon. Who knew that when it came to planning in reality, one had to plan around when my brother could come home for leave and my sister wouldn't be deployed and family from out of town could come and the venue would be available. hahaha. I haven't even planned my graduation party yet! My mom and dad have been very supportive so far. Even though their baby is growing up faster than they want. 

I have a question.

Wanna stop reading yet!?!

-Samantha 

A woman knows the face of the man she loves like a sailor knows the open sea.
Honoré de Balzac